I had gotten myself pretty well trained about avoiding googling medical things not long after we found out our pregnancy was complicated. I realized it that was only giving me undue stress and was offering no real incite to MY case. It seemed to only point on worst-case-scenarios and things that you never want to read/hear about in situations that are far to similar to your own.
But today, I failed. While I'll admit that I pretty obsessively check every developmental timeline available to make sure we are on the right track, I have sort of let it "slip my mind" of any really scary prognosis' regarding David's brain bleed from 10 days after birth. It had seemed to resolve itself well, and the doctor at our NICU follow up appt was not concerned in the least.
Google feels otherwise.
Google produced me a long list of things I hadn't even thought about. As I'm freaking out about something I can control about as much as the weather, I try to remind myself that, so far, we are developing just like we are supposed to. He kicks and wiggles and smiles and reaches up at things. His head seems to be getting stronger, although his hatred of tummy time continues, and he looks to be getting closer to flipping over again. He stops crying when he sees me every morning, and gives me a big ole smile. He has a laugh thats not quite a giggle just yet, but definitely a laugh. When we have our late afternoon conversations with each other, its definitely not one sided, as I know he is talking back to me with all his different sounds and coo's. I have to remind myself of the good things, or Google will take them from me. Stupid Google.
This devotion always reminds me that God is in control and He has the power to heal David and He has all the answers, not Google, so I needn't worry. I only need to trust God, not Google.
In other happenings, going back to work has been exhausting and a major adjustment for sure, but otherwise uneventful. I thought the first day would be the hardest, but it was actually the third. That's the day you actually realize you have to KEEP coming back and its not just a one time thing! David loves the nanny though and he continues to do well, which is the greatest blessing and the most important thing!
Enjoying our afternoon conversations with each other!
Charles and David have the same bedtime.
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